All perfect praise be to Allah, The Lord of the Worlds. I testify that there is none worthy of worship except Allah, and that Muhammad, is His slave and Messenger.
You must repent sincerely to Allah, The Exalted, and recall His Wrath and Punishment that He inflicts upon those who disobey Him and go against His Commands. You should remember that the heavens and earth cannot withstand His Wrath. Think about the Last Day and its grave horrors and terrors, beware of incurring the Wrath and Punishment of Allah, The Almighty, then repent to Him sincerely and strengthen your relationship with Him. Bear in mind that the door of repentance is always open and is never closed in the face of anyone until the sun rises from the West. So return to your Lord; perform abundant acts of obedience and good deeds; make up for the prayers and fasting you missed; keep the company of the righteous women who would help you adhere to the obedience of Allah, The Exalted; devote yourself to Thikr and supplication, and ask Allah to bless you with steadfastness on His Religion until the day you meet Him.
Allah Knows best.